rooftop dreams
I've always been pressured by society to be a certain someone. A certain religion, a certain body type, the typical attitude...but I found I just don't fit that part. I spend alot of time up on my roof gazing into the night and thinking. I find it's the only place when I can have my own opinion, my own thoughts, and it's realistic to accomplish my dreams. Although seeming unattainable I have big goals for myself, life always seems so complicated but when you have time to slow down and just think I find you know more about it then you thought you did. See, on the roof there are no boundaries, your mind will take you places you never knew it had been exposed to and with that being said you discover new things about yourself. It's not about who you were or what you did, it's about who you are now and the imaginary boundries you somehow break when you confine yourself to solitude and discover who you are.
posted by &Jasmine @ 10:00 PM
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Jasmine!!!! It's so great to hear from you. I thought we'd lost you. What do you think about everything that's happened since your last post, considering it was your post way back in june, "how about stars," that got us going in this direction?
Another rooftop person, huh? I'm going to have to check out these Edmonton rooftops someday.
I really like the contrast you've brought up about how when you're on your rooftop and exposed to the universe, the boundaries of yourself are both established (the solitude of self and having your own opinion finally) and simultaneously, are broken (there is no past, just who you are now plus a universe of possibity for who you may become).
This contrast is exactly what I'm trying to wrap my head around right now (and what I wrote about in the string theory and space post). How is that the stars we see -- which are actually the light from a billion or so years ago just now reaching us -- can make us feel so connected to rest of the universe and also so beautifully unique and alone? How is it something so far away and so abstract to us helps us discover who we are and at the same time lets us know how tiny we are?
When you're up there on your rooftop confined to the solitude of the wide open space of the universe in the present moment, who are you and what is it that matters to you then?
And if you're not Jasmine and don't have a rooftop, then replace "rooftop" with wherever it is you go... I'm pretty sure we all go somewhere to feel exactly what Jasmine is talking about.
well actually i lost the link haha but with some help i found it again!! lol okay well too start im thrilled that the idea is being taken farther i can't wait to see what comes of it so far everytihng seems great! Okay now ill try and explain everything you asked me haha. For me...stars even though far away is something that your mind can still take on as it's own. Although there is tons of sceintific theory behind them the mystery of them and everything they stand for are all up too you. They are what you want them to be; and now a days that's a really hard thing to find. When I'm up on my roof it's not so much as me feeling alone...it's more me in my own setting you know. There's no one telling you who you are or who to be it's just you and what you're feeling at that moment. Without the confines of other people you arn't pressured to conform to other's ideas, your mind takes you wherever it can go and as far into the night as you want it too.I hope that helped somewhat. I'm going to try and reply as much as i can now to help grasp the concept cause it's hard to grasp and put into words haha.
Stars are what you want them to be... so true. I guess that's why we're so enamoured with them. And if the stars are whatever you want them to be then you can be whatever you want to be in their presence... is that it? Or, put another way -- stars are whatever we want them to be and because of this, we see ourselves in the stars and therefore have the freedom to be whatever it is we want to be.
Such a cool idea.
And it totally fits with how we create constellations with human stories.... we see ourselves there in the sky. Or we want, at least.
you definatly nailed it haha.
hey, jasmine, it'd be awesome if you wrote a little monologue for the 'zut! wishes' post. if you don't feel connected to any of the characters, just make up your own. or write as yourself.
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